I am a Christian-tho I call myself a baby Christian because I’ve only been saved for 4 years.
I also doubt my “goodness” as a Christian as judged by human standards based upon my commitment to my spiritual disciplines. Upon my inability to “give it all to Him” and feel instantly better.
I’m sure a lot of my perceived failure has to do with my relationship with my Earthly father, never being good enough for him. And sometimes lately God has seemed far away. I KNOW He isn’t but sometimes when going through the harshest storms you look left and right and wait for Him to pull you out of it (yeah yeah I know that’s not Biblical).
But today Air1 (radio station) has been speaking to me. The first song I heard this morning was https://youtu.be/AiF09D9TIls
Then today’s verse of the day was perfect for me
“For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!”
2 Corinthians 4:17 NLT
Then tonight as I came down to prepare the kitchen for the morning and again that same song came on, and right after that one this one came on https://youtu.be/wjLlLPZderk followed by https://youtu.be/emgv-VRtMEU
If you listen to the lyrics it really would appear God is reminding me He’s here, with me, in this storm and He will not let me go. I’m grabbing that life rope tonight because I feel like I’m being pulled under water and for tonight it just might keep me afloat.