As I was driving home from another doctor appointment where at least the doctor seemed to LISTEN to me about my hip- tho still prescribing PT first- whatever- and I was scratching my arms out of frustration, driving home without my seatbelt and thinking about how easy it would be to run myself off the road and end it all, it occurred to me that maybe at some point wanting and loving my husband and children won’t be enough. Maybe they won’t be enough to keep me from seriously hurting myself. Scratching is pretty beningn – yes it counts as self harm but still in the grand scheme of things pretty innocuous…. what will I do then? When they aren’t enough?
Maybe that’s a good start for counseling today?