I’m reading and following along with an online Bible study from Loving God Greatly called Broken and Redeemed.
I’m really struggling though as I read the blog posts. I believe in God, I believe Jesus saved Me. I believe He is at work in our lives. BUT I don’t understand how to just turn my feelings of anxiety, fear, hopelessness, depression, loneliness, worthlessness off. I read His word. I listen to worship music almost constantly. I have a truth book in my purse with several verses of hope, love, comfort. Verses meant to show me I’m not alone. I believe He’s here, with me, but it seems as I read these blogs these people have these great revelations and all of a sudden it all makes perfect sense, the storm they’re in. And suddenly they see the purpose in the storm.
Am I doing something wrong? Am I not faithful enough? I guess my prayer is for the Lord to help my belief in my unbelief? Or through my doubts? Or give me His eyes. Because I don’t know how to find this revelation that will bring me immediate peace, understanding and healing.
Does anyone else out there know the answer?