I hate the “come down”

Sometimes I think I would rather never experience those moments of simple joy like I did earlier. Because what happened after I was at my children’s karate class and a topic was brought up that I have PTSD about and ever since then I felt sick, had a headache, and sweating and just feel awful. I would love to be able to bring myself back to that moment of simple joy when I was feeding my chickens but it’s gone it’s like I reach for it and it’s it’s like I’m reaching into the air for nothing.  It’s almost better to never feel those moments of joy because when they’re gone the emptiness and sadness that’s left over whelms you and leaves you feeling awful. 

Author: thethingswehideinside

Im an almost 40 year old mom struggling through this life with two children, a husband, a houseful of animals. We all have mental or physical challenges that make daily life even harder, this is our journey.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s