John Mayer- In the Blood

https://youtu.be/ob-jS7bqYgI

How much of my mother has my mother left in me?How much of my love will be insane to some degree?

And what about this feeling that I’m never good enough?

Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?
How much of my father am I destined to become?

Will I dim the lights inside me just to satisfy someone?

Will I let this woman kill me, or do away with jealous love?

Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?
I can feel love the I want, I can feel the love I need

But it’s never gonna come the way I am

Could I change it if I wanted, can I rise above the flood?

Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?

How much like my brothers, do my brothers wanna be?
Does a broken home become another broken family?

Or will we be there for each other, like nobody ever could?

Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?

I can feel love the I want, I can feel the love I need
But it’s never gonna come the way I am

Could I change it if I wanted, could I rise above the flood?

Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?

I can feel the love I want, I can feel the love I need
But it’s never gonna come the way I am

Could I change it if I wanted, can I rise above the flood?

Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?

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My brother introduced me to the song yesterday, and I can’t stop listening to it and the highlighted text or what gets me the most they’re questions I ask myself often. I know there’s a lot of my dad and me and I wish there wasn’t any. And I know there’s some of my mom and me; some that I like, and some that I don’t. I’ve often dimmed the light inside myself just so people will like me. 

This song just resonated with me so much. I think despite whether he wants to admit it or not my brother and I have a lot of pain in common. He said today we are birds of a feather and I agree- in more ways than one.

Author: thethingswehideinside

Im an almost 40 year old mom struggling through this life with two children, a husband, a houseful of animals. We all have mental or physical challenges that make daily life even harder, this is our journey.

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