What side of the bed is the “right” side? 

I woke up feeling “blah” this morning.  Sort of on the sad side.  How can you wake up to a new day full of fresh possibilities already feeling like you want to go back to bed.  

I was sitting here at the table thinking maybe i just got up on the “wrong” side of the bed.  But it’s not that- it’s deeper.  It’s the depression.  I still have a hard time owning my depression.  But it feels like the chains Marley carried.  I feel like if I went into the water I would sink to the bottom. 

I dont remember if I mentioned that I’m waiting to get into an endocrinologist because my thyroid hormones are off, I’m hoping if we can get that under control the antidepressants will work, because something has to pull me out of this before I drown. 

We didn’t go to church today, and I feel incredibly guilty I just couldn’t get out of bed I was so wearily tired.  And I packed my stuff to go last night but I just couldn’t get out of bed this morning. So as I type this I’m listening to worship music and trying to pray for some relief.

Happy Sunday.

Until next time

Advertisements

Author: thethingswehideinside

Im an almost 40 year old mom struggling through this life with two children, a husband, a houseful of animals. We all have mental or physical challenges that make daily life even harder, this is our journey.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s