Worn- again

I know I have posted this before but I am just so down tonight and I listened to it over and over tonight.  It fits. The highlighting is mine.

I’m tired
I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes to keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart that’s frail and torn
I want to know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
‘Cause I’m worn
I know I need
To lift my eyes up
But I’m too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that You can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart that’s frail and torn
I want to know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn
And my prayers are wearing thin
I’m worn even before the day begins
I’m worn I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn so heaven so come and flood my eyes
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart that’s frail and torn
I want to know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Yes all that’s dead inside will be reborn
Though I’m worn

Yeah I’m worn
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I AM worn. I AM losing my will to fight. I’m trying to turn to my faith, but I am feeling so weak.
I called the pharmacist that I trust today and my endocrinologist there is no reason to worry about lithium/metformin interaction, I will be fine. At least that’s one less thing to worry about.
Little one is at my moms.  She’s going on a lobster fishing trip. I asked my mom if she ate for here’s what she sent:
100% of grape juice,2 glass milk,chicken,gr.beans,rice,whole cuke,pickled beets and 2 cookies.snack 2 glass milk and 2 cookies.
And she was asleep fairly quickly.  It takes us 2 hours.
I am at the point now that I just think that maybe I just suck at this motherhood thing.  Maybe I should put them in school and spend my days in bed.
I really am feeling weak, and worn out. I need God to come down and hold me up.

Author: thethingswehideinside

Im an almost 40 year old mom struggling through this life with two children, a husband, a houseful of animals. We all have mental or physical challenges that make daily life even harder, this is our journey.

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