I want to pat my dog

See I have lots of pets. 50ish chickens, 4 rabbits, 5 cats and 3 dogs.  I only touch one cat.  She’s the newest almost a year old.  She’s short hair, keeps herself very clean. My other cats are long hair, and one other short hair- but they don’t like me. But the cat here- she’s “Meow”.  She’s sweet.  But there are days I can’t touch her either. 

But I have a special dog.  He’s my big yellow dog. He loves me more than anything in this entire world. But I can’t touch him because of my OCD. He’s germy.  He smells like dog. I pat him with my socked foot but I can’t bear to touch his fur.  On a particularly good day I can pat his ears then immediately wash my hands but I haven’t had a good day in a while 😦 

I want to pat my dog.  I want to love on him the way he wants me to.  But my brain won’t let me. I get the danger signal.  And it breaks my heart.  Does anyone else suffer from this? 

Author: thethingswehideinside

Im an almost 40 year old mom struggling through this life with two children, a husband, a houseful of animals. We all have mental or physical challenges that make daily life even harder, this is our journey.

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