I have been trying, to no avail, to distract myself from my own brain.  I am still on a Facebook fast so I have been posting more on instagram, and pinning a ton of things about mental health, inspirational quotes and my newest obsession bullet journaling. Now don’t mistake pinning for actually doing it. I bought the journal, I have almost a hundred pins about it, but I have yet to touch pen or pencil to the paper. I have a hard time starting things.  like when I go to a paint night, the hardest part for me is first brush stroke.

I am hoping that I will be ale to get the courage to actually start the journal, or at least get a sketch for the new year ready. But I don’t know.   I can’t make decisions, ad my anxiety is so bad sometimes I can’t breath.  I feel like little electrical jolts in my brain when I am having these attacks.

Hubby got a call that his Aunt had died unexpectedly.  And I had no affect, no emotion. I was neither sad nor upset.  Of all his aunts she’s the one I was closest to.  She and I used to exchange letters.  But still nothing.  Why is it that I have no affect?  No emotional reaction to death? This can’t be normal.

Author: thethingswehideinside

Im an almost 40 year old mom struggling through this life with two children, a husband, a houseful of animals. We all have mental or physical challenges that make daily life even harder, this is our journey.

3 thoughts on “Distraction”

  1. When my son was hospitalized in May, that was how he was. No emotions. It was so bizarre, because he would always cry, or be very passionate about things. Luckily for us his thyroid medication got him back to his old self. I hope you can start feeling like yourself again soon.

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