The memory problems associated with ECT can be quite unnerving. I picked up my glass 4-cup measuring cup off the counter today and stared at it. I couldn’t remember where it went. No matter how long I looked or how hard I tried to remember it was gone, poof. I had to ask my son where it went. It seemed like such a stupid question- it’s my kitchen!
It’s so weird to be doing something normal and the memory to be gone. I wonder if it’ll come back, or if some of my memory will always be gone.
I have had 3 ECT treatments, I don’t really notice much of a difference yet. But I don’t think I’m expected to, I think I am supposed to have 9-12 treatments.
My brain doesn’t work as well as it did. But I think it’s supposed to get better. It’s taken me a while to write this because my train of thought doesn’t flow like it used to. But my brain seems to work just fine when I’m having anxiety. Of course <insert eye roll> I wish that the ECT would make the anxiety go away the way some of my memories have….
I guess that’s all I have to say…. I’m sure there was more I intended to tell you all, but it’s disappeared like my memories.