This is no way to live….

Since sending my kids back to school things have definitely been different around here.  Little one loves school, it’s perfect for her- she’s so social, and so eager to learn.  She’s made more progress in the past couple months than I was able to make with her most of last year, mainly because big one took so much of my attention and time.

Big One however, seems to hate school.  He feels like he’s getting bullied by everyone, and works so hard to hold himself together all day then comes home and is verbally aggressive to myself, my husband, and his worker.  Today he was so angry that after an hour of ranting and screaming- using profanity, and being completely disrespectful, he slammed our glass door hard enough to break some of the panes- thankfully he didn’t.  But then he kicked the baby gate we have at the bottom of the stairs so many times he broke one of the rungs.

Tonight’s outburst was brought to you by Circle By Disney.  He is extremely angry that we are using internet security and protections.  And we are closing the loopholes of him getting more time than he is supposed to have in a day. We haven’t changed anything, or taken anything away we are just making sure the internet is safe, and that your time limits are respected.

I had to give him his as needed medication because he was out of control.  I hate doing that. But I didn’t have a choice.  I also sent a letter to his counselor for any advice he has. I can’t live like this for the next 4 years.  And I don’t have a lot of hope of it getting any better because this same behavior happened when he was in school for K-3.

However, bringing him back home to homeschool isn’t an option either. Him being here all day wasn’t a life that was good for any of us either.  It’s no wonder I am depressed and anxious all the time. I am living with a mentally ill child- and it’s making me even more crazy than I was to begin with.