Here we are days away from a new year…. a fresh start? I think that’s poppycock. I will be the same person with the same problems on January 1st that I had on December 31st. I think New Year is just another stupid holiday that makes people set unrealistic expectations of themselves for the next 12 months. And I admit in the past I have been no different…. some of my previous “resolutions”
I will lose weight
I will lose weight
I will lose 50lbs
I will lose 100lbs
I will work out
I will run a marathon…
And the list could go on and on. Well I tell you right now it’s all a bunch of BS invented by weight loss companies, exercise equipments companies, the food industry, the gyms….
And I still fall prey to the whole thing. I’ve been thinking I need a generalized goal – like find joy. And then the steps I need to take to get to that destination of joy… of course I need to figure out what gives me joy…. and then come up with ways/things that will bring me there. And to be honest it all sounds like too much work.
Honestly, I think my goal for 2018 is to make it through it. And the only way to do that is to take it one day at a time. Do I have goals? Sure. I want to read more books, I read/listened to 31 this year, I’d like to make it 52 this year. And I would like to try to knit again. But I am going to put that in the maybe column. Other than that, I can’t make goals…. because goals like weight loss, exercise, budgeting I always end up failing at, and it makes things worse not better.
Maybe this all sounds like a big ole pity party, and maybe it is, but I have been thinking a lot about it lately as I have been seeing all these posts about “New Year, New You” on Facebook. No I won’t magically wake up as someone new on New Years Day, and if I could it would be someone in her 20s, who is thin, without gray/white hair, no mental health issues, happy, comfortable financially – not rich just comfortable, debt free, and ok with who she is… heck know who she is. How’s that for unrealistic.
Blah. That’s all I can think right now. I feel like crap.