Do you ever just look around at your life and wonder what the heck happened any how you got here?
I got the results of my thyroid etc tests. Everything was perfect, even my TSH went from 4.08 to 1.82. My antibodies were negative, my adrenal was fine everything was perfect. Except it’s not. That means all my problems are between my ears.
It’s sad to think that good news made me sad. I should be happy my thyroid isn’t shot, but I’m not. That would have provided an explanation that went beyond psychiatric. But no. I couldn’t get so lucky. I know that sounds ridiculous but without a medical explanation it is all psychiatric. That’s so depressing.
That’s all I have for now.
Ok so this one was written pre-surgery too, just barely 7/13/17 12:17am
I was reading a blog from someone in Europe and it made me think about the dreams I’ve always had about traveling.
There is so much of this country, and this world I want to see. I want to see New York City, I want to see the Grand Canyon, I want to see the Rocky Mountains, I want to drive Route 66, I want to go back to San Francisco, I want to see LA. And Hawaii we can’t forget Hawaii! And that’s just here in the USA.
I want to see more of the Caribbean. I want to go to Canada. I want to see France, Spain, Britain, Ireland, Scotland, New Zealand, Australia, and I know there are some more that I am forgetting.
I don’t know if this is another dream that will die and not come true or if someday I will get to see all these wonderfully exotic places. But for now maybe I’ll hold onto the dream for a little while.