Do you have those days/weeks/months/years when you feel like you are just done. Done with adulting, with fighting for every thing, with trying to get through the day? That’s where I am today. Sick and tired of it all.
The IEP meeting went horribly. All my predictions came true. And now we are facing what move to make next. I am already fighting the school to follow the IEP in place for my son, he has two years left. I don’t have it in me to fight another 10 years for help for my daughter. It’s not gotten us anywhere. So we are seriously considering bringing her home for homeschool again. Ugh. So many pros and cons- and neither side has an overwhelming majority.
All through the IEP meeting my whole body was shaking. I tried to take a drink from my water bottle (which I should fill with vodka next time) and I nearly spilled it all over the table. I even told the OT I disagree with her. She’s a useless person. Little one has an incorrect pencil grip, has trouble forming her letters the “right” way – like she starts her S at the bottom, and she many letter reversals- b and d, p and q sometimes a. Well the OT said they can’t correct the pencil grip and the formation because it’s now muscle memory and would be too difficult to fix. As for letter reversals they said they do that in K-1 so they can’t do that, plus in 2nd grade they don’t mark those wrong…. so hubby and I countered with – so we will wait till it’s “a habit and muscle memory that’s too hard to fix” and deal with it when she is failing and getting things wrong. And basically they said yes. WTH. They also don’t want to do an OT eval, because of her non-compliance with tests…. I was like, isn’t that indicative of a problem right there? She had no answer for that. STUPID.
Normally by now I have gotten Christmas decorations out. I am dreading it this year. It all seems like so much work.
I am thankful I am done my Christmas shopping other than what I need to get 2 friends. Things are getting worse, and at least that’s not hanging over my head.
So yeah… done.