I have been listening to a book that Mary Poppins suggested, Lost Connections By Johann Hari. I am only a little ways through, but so far it’s really good. There are some things that really have hit home so far,
This one- I say all the time that my life isn’t what I pictured, what I imagined. And could that be some of my problem?
This, this, this, and this again. I want the meds to take away the pain. I want them to block it. I want the pain to stop. Mary Poppins said that if she were a different doctor I would be on 900mg of Seroquel and wouldn’t have the intrusive thoughts, or many thoughts at all. And I have been thinking about that a lot in the past couple of weeks since I saw her, and she’s right, that’s what I want. I want to be drugged up. I want to not feel the pain. I can completely understand why people get hooked on pain pills.
He identifies 9 causes of depression, the are of course not all encompassing, end not everyone has all of them, but reading through them it really hit home with me.
- Disconnection from Meaningful work
- Disconnection from other people
- Disconnection from meaningful values
- Disconnection from Childhood Trauma
- Disconnection from Status and Respect
- Disconnection from the Natural World
- Disconnection from a Hopeful or Secure Future
- The real role of genes and brain changes.
I can identify with many of those. I am only on cause number 2, but so far it’s really good. I am really glad she has me reading it.
I guess that’s all, I am not having a day where the words will come…. until next time….
The Things We Hide Inside 