Lately it seems like every day is like the one before. The new med the endocrinologist put me on makes me sick, I either nauseous or have gastro issues. I can’t even remember what happened the past couple days. Well, with the exception on yesterday.
Right now we are in school prep mode, so I am trying to gather all our curriculum and clean the school room, that became a junk room over the past year because we schooled at the table, but hubby wants to separate the kids- probably a good idea. I don’t have much energy to get it done. The old me would have had it done weeks ago, and school planned till Christmas. I will probably end up doing all my planning last minute.
Yesterday, I was scheduled to go see my mother, sister, brother-in-law, nephew and step-dad. I was going to wear the snarkiest shirt I have “Im real good at making bad decisions”, but after I did my quiet time and read my Bible, the Holy Spirit prompted me with an article on how to make WISE decisions and one of them was “does it glorify God?” So, I unpacked my snarky shirt and wore a plain purple one. I went with the intention of not discussing the email, and to go with a spirit that Jesus would have, of love, forgiveness and reconciliation. And as always God’s way was the best way. The BBQ went fine, the kids had fun, the email was not brought up and life moved on. That’s not to say I didn’t want to point out how different my kids were this year since last year, but I resisted the urge. It wasn’t easy. But I made it through the day.
Tomorrow, I get to go see Dr Handsome for my 9 week follow up on my hip surgery. A very long drive which I am having anxiety about. But I have to go, and little one has OT so hubby has to take her to that. Im not really sure what he will do at this appointment, or what he tell me I am allowed to do. I am pretty certain that my other hip has the same issue but, it also could have to do with the fact that I have overcompensated the other hip. So I will probably wait a while to make sure it’s not just that.
My anxiety has been somewhat high lately, and I haven’t been as diligent at taking my valium and I have been getting chest pains, pains that wrap around my whole body and hurt into my back. I need to be better at taking them, because obviously missing them is really affecting me.