Is it normal do you think that the best part of my week is the time I spend with my counselor, in my DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy group) and seeing my psychiatric nurse practitioner? They make me laugh. Sometimes they make me cry. They make me feel things, real things. They don’t look at me like I am crazy. They don’t yell at me about all my OCD “rules” and rituals. They don’t treat me like I am “sick” or like I am a specimen to be studied, but like a human, like I am an important human, maybe even a funny and smart human. Someone who is more than just the crazy. Someone who matters beyond what you see, beyond the hand washing, the disinfecting wipes, the checking, the fears, the depression, the anxiety, the hiding.
Do they see me? Is that why it’s the best part of my week? I don’t know, but it is. And part of me is glad. I’m glad I have a best part of my week. But part of me is not glad, part of me thinks it’s sad that the best part of my week is when I go to my mental health providers.